u-n-t-i-t-l-e-d

time trickles away
mid-sem break is coming to an end
i felt as if i am suffocating
too much to be done
too much in my thoughts
just cant fit everything into a tiny box
is the box too small?
or there are too much?
it is gonna overflow at any moment
yet
i cant find what i wanted in that box
how irony..
there is something missing in there
something which is so abstract
so rare
so difficult to be even realized
BUT I am so infatuated with it
though i see nary a silhouette of it

kept asking myself why..

lost halfway through the dimly-lit alleyway
searching for a torch,
that would light up my heart
anyone willing to lend me one?

best salad ever!

i luv salad!!!

bowling

It was the first Friday of the 3rd semester n we decided to go bowling.
ther v went- 2amateur players n 2 first timers
venue-ole-ole
time-after lunch

i had never have such awful experience with bowling before that:

the very first thing that annoyed me is the almost around-the-clock technical problem, really cant bear with it. for instance 10 pins bowling turn out to be 9 pins, then a 5 score became a strike, then those pins jamming, then the ball came out on the wrong side...so the technician or whosoever was our "dearest spectator" haiz...nearly fret over those problems..they simply spoilt my mood..

secondly i just cant understand why on would i would get my dizziness during the second game..n yea i screwed it up.

conclusion-never go to ole-ole for bowling again until they make some overhaul (i doubted that).

terrible scores huh? definitely an eyesore


crappy ones


guinness world record : pathetic zeroes


only 8 n 9 for us



and...here comes me- the terrible player..lol

For YOU

first of all , my heartiest congratulation to all who got their placements in local (gov) universities of their choice, and of course courses of your choice. you guys must be on the seventh heaven when you hear that news.
however, i am well aware that most of my friends didn't get what they wanted. this is indeed sad. i heard some of them lamented and whined about it but frankly i cant do nothing to help, neither do anyone else. it is really inconceivable when one get a place for actuarial science while the first choice applied for is pharmacy. don't you think so it is ridiculous? and the point is this student excel in both co-curricular activities and academic (4.0)..i feel even pathetic when i saw some students with CGPA 3.6 get courses and uni they wished.. one thing i cant fathom out is that how are placements in university distributed? why the results seem so unjust? i wanna see transparency!! where is it?? the current condition would only incur wrath in prospective students. n how can a good student be produced is his/her courses is actually determined by someone else??--is forced to study sth he/she hated??

dear, i truly understand your feeling now, thou i m not in the same boat with you..nevertheless,it was destined and nothing can be changed anymore.cry it out if you want , i have my shoulders for you here... dont worry, there is always a silver lining in the cloud..i m sure u ll excel no matter what happen...hope to hear from you dear..love you, always.

holiday-ing

oh..no i shouldn't be here...but i am here right now~instead of doing research on unit3 (which i suppose to), i am here, blogging, googling nonsensical and unrelated subjects, facebook-ing, downlaoding videos and crapping on MSN..gosh..these should be the last thing i wished to do, but i cant deny the inertia- Heroes3, Gossip girl2, Chuck, How i Met your Mother, One Tree Hill...etc.i cant stop but addicted to them..i am pretty sure my eyes are strained and really do need a break now..all in all, i have just been slacking too much during the sem break so far..sigh!

i could hardly figure out why, but i did sign up for Relay for Life which is held in Bukit Jalil two days ago..some may say it would be a wiser decision to just stay at home and enjoy my holidays rather than travelling all the way back to SA to be a volunteer worker...anyway it was great and no regret joining..

we set off from SA at about 1pm..the journey to that stadium took us about one hour plus..we were the first student volunteer team to reach there...
to avoid a long-winded post...let me just sum things up..the whole night was indeed fabulous and meaningful..there were 5000-odd people who took part in the Relay For Life (RFL)..activities held include games, competitions and races. not to forget the "blackout session" held in remembrance of those who died of cancer. it was rather a touching session where family member's or friends of those died of cancer shared theirs thoughts and feelings with the public; their words give hope and encouragement to cancer patients to strive for survival. on top of that, the most significant activity was the 16-hours marathon walk which was participated by cancer survivors, the public, college students, celebrities, ambassadors from foreign countries...etc.a substantial amount of money was raised from the event and it would be channeled towards upgrading National Cancer Society of Malaysia.
apart from that i want to specially applause for a group of students from the Monash university. not everyone could have done what they did- they shaved their head bald and managed to raise rm 40,000! again, my standing ovation for them!
as it was a 16-hour walk, the event spanned through the whole night.."fortunately", i managed to sleep for at least an hour!
in a nutshell, it was a worthwhile experience.

p/s- the food sold was nice!

some snapshots here:












signing off now, bye!
enjoy yr hols, people!

thoughts

tear filled my eyes
rolled down my cheeks
wet my collar..
i has been awhile i never wept, but today
i tried to forget
yes..it blanked out...but just for that few minutes
then it came back to me again
why? i can't figured out despite my endeavor searching for a solution..

people say that you can trust no one but yourself..love no one but yourself..is that true?
i hope not

perhaps it is inane
but i opt to hold on
i believe things will change when it is due
i believe there will be lights at the end of the tunnel..
hope it does

god , i know you heard me..
please, give me a hand

mistake

i knew
by all means
it was a mistake
a huge mistake
that is irrevocable
it shouldn't have happened
but it did
is there anyone to be blamed?
yes or no?
u say it